now i feel that being put in a spot when i had to choose between both parties which both are equally important to me. when my friends who come and stay here with me have been the one being there for me in my ups and down of live for the past few months, and till now. while on the hand, found my love life, who is also important as his love greet me to a new breather of love, not like those past relationships that i had gone through, when at times i think back, its nothing serious during that time, as at that moment of time, you can live off with love , trust and faithfulness of the half but now its more than that as we're not getting any younger. eventhough 18 years old some people think that i'm still a young lady that have so much to do in life, but by a blink of an eye, i'm not that 18 year old lady anymore.
i never want to leave either of them,neither would i want to hurt both parties and have disagreement between each other. we just started this journey and these had to happened between you and them, i never wish for both parties have anything against each other. i know you're care and concern towards me after hearing the stories that i told you, but its the past, i know it wont happened again, not for the second time. being with them when im the only lady there, there was no intention of wanting and loving the attention i get from them. we're friends, a clique. they are my friends, you're my love, i want both to be in good terms.
in 3 days straight, my tears just won't stop falling, asking why have to be put in a spot. why i have to choose,when both i need in my life. you giving me another chance, and am sorry for the things i done that hurt you, it was not deliberately at all, never it was. i love you, and its not a lie. its not your money or materials that i wanted. all that has no meaning to it when there is no love. you're love is beyong from what i expected, you pampered me like a liitle girl, who always crave for more and never ending.
one word turns into war
why is it the smallest things that tears us down?
