lately,i've been keeping myself busy by dreaming away & staring into space. many things had happened yet they still weighing in my mind. i'm missing the people whom i love so much, whom had been there for me & also whom i had hurt directly or indirection with no intention. just few minutes ago, i browse through my friendster account,looking at all the photos & something caught my eye,something that should not be there yet it gave me another big surprise, someone gave a comment for that photo,which in fact they must have thought that we're still have something going on. yet i wonder why i feel so badly stab by the comments he made...when it had ended for some time now. it's not easy when all the company whom you know is also somehow related to your own family members,when their impresson of that person is different from yours,& when you meet up with them,you don't know what to say or react to whatever they're doing or saying yet they pretend as if nothing was wrong.
even when i'm with them, i dont feel like i should be there, i mean i should never be there, i dont know what the hell they talks about,laugh about etc. i dont know a single thing in all the conversation that had. they have their own world together & me like some kind of foreigner in some foreign country. at the end of the day, i'm the one being accused of this & that...i know this thing had been long time gone yet i still cant get it of my mind...
never should be there....
(somehow i know its not too late,
to faz,just realize you gave a comment on that picture,thanks a lot)
