currently sitting around at the coffeebean changi airport alone. waiting for my brother finish up all the work which will be like till 1am. i'm really at loss now,my brain is like a drum,beating non stop,& its feel like i'm gonna faint anytime soon after what had happened in a spilt second that changes everything,or maybe not,its still the same,its make no different if it happened or not. well,maybe its his fault,all because of his 'mulut masin', it means something like someone should not like curse or something,or maybe not, it will happen sooner or later. & it happend around an hour plus ago. i hate to be in such a situation,like the saying goes, 'the past is repeating again', is that how the phrase is?.anyway its not important,whtas makle a wow!!!! thing now is,inever walk this far till here after being in such a situation,which every teenager hate to happened.
i dont think i'm gonna say it here,of what happened. but one thing for sure, i really wanna say sorry to him upon what had happened. in fact i should not left him in a lurch,& face all the nonsense,screaming alone. during that moment,only one thing that keep repeating & saying in my mind,that is 'i wanna walk away! & leave me alone!'. i know i'm running away from the problems that i'm facing all these while. somehow thats the only way that i can do & i'm gonna do. in fact i just lock myself in the room like i always do when i get home from work or anywhere.
by the way,taufiq the suria actor,is just sitting next to my table with his girlfriend i think,must be. WTH!!!,sempat fatin selitkan. anyway right now,i'm waiting for him to meet me again,eventhough tried to persuade him to go home as it will be hard for him to go home later,when there's no more public transport in service. somehow deep within my heart i appreciate evrything he done,especially when he have to travel all the way from west to east just to meet me, & what ever happened just now,should not happened to him. its all my fault,i'm making him all mad. i'm still thinking what i shoud do or say when he's right beside me or what my response should be upon every thing he want & have to say. still waiting....& waiting....
* to abg ali,somehow i kinda miss you,eventhough we're not close, hope you're doing fine & in good health. kinda really wish that you could be here right now with me. eventhough we both just knew & realized that we actually exist in our both worl & with just one outing,i appreciate all the advices you gave me,even when i'm mad during the outing,you & the rest made me laugh. i understanf the help,care,concern & love you try to show. thank you so much,love you,miss you, really hope to see you soon.
