had english papers today, i think i screwed up my composition but i think id did fine for my letter writing. for paper two, luckily the both passages was not that difficult at all since it is about bulimia and obese people lucky for me that i'm an f&n student hehe. well, papers ends at 12:11pm but we the teacher only dismissed us exactly 12:25pm, normal school time,like whatever. so rushed here and there,rushed to the bus stop and had to wait for like 20minutes for the bus 69 to come and i was like freaking hot standing under the hot sun waiting for the bus and i'm in hurry to meet my dear boyfriend as firstly i dont want to see the 'angels' i know and secondly had to send my lil princess to school (which is syarah yasmin, my dear boyfriend's lil sister). then went back to his house. everything went fine not until somehow i dont know how the arguments happened and the same thing happened like the last time, well i would not say it here just let it be withing me and him. i dont know how long the argument went on but i just kept quiet throughout the arguments. then i can't hold back the tears and hurt, tears just keep flowing down.
Confession:sesungguhnya setiap manusia tidak akan terlepas daripada buat kesalahan,
walaupun kesalahan itu kecil, sesungguhnya setiap manusia di muka
bumi ini tidak sempurna. tetapi jijik kah aku di mata mu? hina kah diri ku
dalam pandang mu? begitu banyak kah kelemhan ku yang dapat di lihat oleh
mu? begitu rendah kah diri ku? adakah kehadiran ku dalam hidup me hanya
datang membawa kesusahan pada diri mu? atau kehadiran ku hanya
menyakitkan hati mu? sesungguhnya pergaduhan yang terjadi anatara,
setiap kali itulah aku serah segalanya padaNya, jika sesungguhnya
hidup mati ku di dalam genggaman mu. sesungguhnya sungguh sukar
untuk ku menahan butiran mutiara yang ingin mengalir
tetapi apakah daya ku, tidak boleh ku tahan sebak itu lagi. sesungguhnya
walaupun hati ini banyak kali ditoreh aku tetap menyayanggi mu kerana
air pun ada pasang surutnya apatah lagi hidup manusia.
ku memohon maaf atas kecacatan diri ku ini yang tidak
cukup sempurna untuk diri mu.
you're my air that i breath
you're the blood that is running through my whole body
you're my light to shine me during my darkest time
you're my joker that always bring me smile
you're my sunshine to my morning
you're my music when i'm bored
you're my baby patrick that i hug to sleep
you're my colours to my life
you're my baby love to my heart
