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Confession of the day:Why do you have to lie? why is it seems so hard to make it things right? is these what you mean by making up the things you did in the past and keep adding up your lies and wrong doings towards me? dont ever lie to me,you white lies wont go anywhere, it will just keep adding up your stress. your lies would only bringing me to the truths that you hide. why do you have to cover up your lies with your stupid reasons. i'm not born just yesterday neither i just know you for a day. i've known you for years for goodness sake. i know when you're telling lies, i know when you starts to use your tricks under your sleeves and i know when you've become a sweet talker etc. but why you keep using your white lies? i may be an idiot in front of you but when i'm behind you,i'm not that fucking idiot girl you know. i have my means and ways that at the need of the day you are the one at the losing end.
you said you hate playboys and to you only rich people can be one so are you really consider yourself as one? cause i'm sure you damn rich yourself. you said the most important thing when it comes to relationship and love is the heart of the person but yet you're doing this to me. dont you think you just talking nonsense that just dosent make any sense at all? what ever you said about yourself dosent really reflects who you are. people said you're a successful person and i just smile when they give me such comments but are you really a successful person in your real life? i wonder, i leave that for you to answer. do you know that i can never trust you, no matter how sweet is the words,i can never trust you,your words kills. i pretend to accept the fact that you love me a lot/truely/sincerely and i pretend to accept the fact that i'm officially your girlfriend, so what? i'm your 2nd girlfriend? i wanted to bastard you but i think is of no use. but this is what i said to you "i hope you're not leaving me,if you love me truely and sincerely,is either me or her but i'm sure its her,think please,dont reply or called me with a question,i just want an answer,love you". and what did you reply me? "the problem is i'm attached to her 1st" and then i asked you "then why come back looking for me?",tell me how long i have to wait for your answer,it is such a simple question and i'm sure you know the answer,you just dont want to say it. i told you not to lie,i told you to tell me the truth cause i hate when i find out the truth myself.
love between three persons never exists,if it were to exist you have only one choice,you cant take both to be yours. i wish to know right now "what am i to you?",am i your toy? am i just someone you look for when you have no one by your side? am i someone who can satisfy your every needs? "what is she to you?,is she your princess? and i'm your toy?. why you can be faithful to her and love her with all your heart,and tell the whole world that you love her so much,you cant bear to let her go? why i have to be your toy and only someone in need for you?
how different am i to her or any of your ex that you had been faithfully love them?
p.s: i'm waiting for my questions to be answered,i told you nothing would happened to you even if you get into fight before i take my leave cause i know it is just another white lies of yours.
