tuesday,18 december
it is was the day of the collection of the n level results.i couldnt sleep the whole night & ending up walking around the house early morning like some insane people. so like around 10 or 11+ i took a shower & went online for a while,chat with some of my friends for a while & then around 12pm i change into my school uniform & off to the bus stop with my mom. she tag along since she wanted to go to the market. so at first we were at the bus stop where i normally take 228 to go to school,since it didnt came after some time & i was already panicking so we went to the other bus stop & lucky me bus 66 came course i'm really gonna be late from school & meeting up with sufi at bedok interchange. so i went to bedok interchange first to meet sufi,since he had promise me to accompany me to collect my results slip. but i think i bother him too much cause he had to go on a long trip just to meet me here at bedok.
well i know singapore is just an island but from woodlands to bedok is quite far ok. how sweet can it be,i cant ask for more...i bet my boy wouldnt able to that cause just a few blocks away he said its far. since i was late i made him wait,since my hp starts giving me problems i had to walk few rounds to search for him yet my eyes is really playing games on me. after much effort of try to knock my hp here & there at last it works,so he called me & there i saw him near the top up machine...i wanted to take bus to school as i was afraid i might me late yet he insist of walking to school,then he waited for at the void deck & off i went to school. & my guess was right there was an attire checking even before anyone could step into the school. many were caught of tinted hair etc & i almost got caught but i able to walk off straight to the hall as those with attire problems had to sit at the ava room. i was all nervous during a short talk by mdm tay & teachers, then it was time i broke into tears. i did broke into tears the 1st person then. everyone tried to comfort & seeing me in tears everyone start to broke into tears even before they collected their results yet of cause the whole hall seems to be flooded with tears especially the malay girls from my class.
especially those hugs & kiss given by my darling which is my friend,zulhijah was the greatest moment i wont forget,i hug her back & just let all her tears flow. well again i was really sorry to keep sufi waiting for me in cold.when i saw him from afar he was sleeping sitting down,i really felt guilty cause he couldnt have any rest just to meet me since he working time is late at night & ends early in the morning but yet he insist of accompanying me. so i gave a light tap,to wake him up.the first question he asked when he opens his eyes were " so hows the result? pass?",i couldnt smile & just stand in from of him hugging my results,looking down. he kept pressing me with the question & i still just keeping quiet. so he tried to pull the results slip from me & i kept shaking my head,& he kept insist it is let it go...i know i didnt do it that well eventhough i got promoted like it stated since the points was just enough to pass. i know he tried to comfort me by saying that i done quite well etc,but it didnt seems to work.then he pulled me to sit by his side & i started crying thinking of the results i got. he tried a lot of things just to comfort me,in the end,he pulled me towards him,he hug me & kiss me...then he sent me home...
to conclude: he didnt break the two promises he made which is to accompany me to collect my result slip & gave me a kiss when we meet. yet i know i should be accepting all that since i already have a guy but during that time i only have him to pour out all my sadness & i did wish my guy would be the on doing that but my boy had to canceled to meet me as he said he's going on vacation but yet i cant seem to trust him on that as he didnt contact me till today...so yesterday was hari raya haji,& as i woke up early morning yesterday with no one at home sufi greet me with joy & happiness. so waited for my dad to come home from hari raya prayers then got myself dll up & off to grandma house since my mom had been there since early morning. so i stayed at my grandma house the whole day....
p.s.: dont try to ignore me or get away from me or even just throwing me away without no reasons,cause i cant seems to trust you,you dont seems to be on vacation yet leaving me instead,i wonder is everything is just fake & i'm the idiot one....
