well,our relationship there was just born on the 250907,had ended on 290907. i'm sure most of you this relationship that was built, was just a child play but it was not. even though i stead with a guy who is not well-educated,the naughty2 type of guy,in volve in gangs etc, i don't we should be together. and i dont really need to tire myself to asked for a break up,all i did was asked him who am i to him and then after he said he treat me like a friend,i'm more than happy when i read those words appeared in the message he sent. its good we're not together as we were never in good terms with each other since the day we stead upon all the problems that pop up. since that day, all he did was racked up the pasts that had got nothing to do with him at all, and all the problems and incident happened even before we were together. he did pushed me down to the ground,well of course not literally,he made me fall all over again,and he break me into pieces when he spells out everything.
"kepada bekas kekasih ku yang 'tersayang' dan paling SIAL, terima kasih atas komen-komen kamu,walaupun ia menyakitkan hati,tapi menusuk ke sanubari,sabar-sabar,aku tk patut cakap dengan bersopan santun,sepatutnye aku kene cakap macam ni.....ehk, jantan! kalau kau bace this post pn bagos,skrg aku tk de ha l ngan kau!,aku pompan sundal ke aper ke,aku tk de menyusahkan diri kau ar,nakal2 aku pn,aku berpelajaran,biar nakal dan berpelajarn! jgn nakal tapi BODOH mcm kau,makin Bodoh ar kau since kau hisap gum,jgn merendah2 kn diri org kalau diri tu bkn baik,BODOH!!!!,daripade kacau org gi merempat bawa blk hisap gum lagi bagos,n years down the road i'll see u begging by the roadside!!!"
250506250307 (ended)thanx for appreciate what i had done , sorry if i had hurt you in any way while we were together and on my last post.
(tapi aper yang you ckp dulu,skrg mcm menjadi beban dlm hidup i,dose, salah dan silap you,menjadi beban i juga),sorry that now i dont appreciate you in any way or anything you had done,cause you seems to be with me everywhere i go,it's like you're always talking to me,with the same words you spell out during the fights. it takes months to get over my 1st ex,you're over me just by 1 day,and it's gonna take me moths again to get over with everything especially those words that you spelled out,not the nice things though.
p.s.: if you peeps out there have any comments about what i wrote on the last post and on this post,say what ever you want,you got nothing to do with all these problems,and stop behaving as though you understand when all you want to do is makin g others hate me too. & oh ya,since i can't let it out to anyone about what i feel and what i am going through,my blog is the only place, to dry my tears and fixed myself up.
250307 to today
since the day i'm involve in relationship again on the 250507, things never went the right way, and slowly everyday people try to pull me down,make me fall,break me into pieces. upon hearing all the words being spelled out from their mouth and by my own loved one, it make me slowly lose everything,since then,i had lost my pride,i'm an unwanted doll that had been throw away,the picked me up from the trash just to see if i'm useful in any other ways and then throw me back in the trash. i'm worse then before. people call m e names,bitch,whore etc, like as though i'm not an human being just like them,who have feelings. others try to comfort me and say i'm just to emo,but i'm not,cause these is what i'm feeling. my tears were never appreciate by others,what i had one never been appreciate my others,my thoughts,my care and concern, my love,my understanding towards them,the sorry i have always be the one spelling it out were never appreciate by others,what's more myself. they look and use me like a toy,hurt me,break me,throw me anytime they want.
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busy,busy,stress ourselves up with math
my heads is spinning upon seeing the numbers...
math paer 1 and geography paper
