250506-250307,the period of time that i don't wish to remember and walk with me even the beautiful n meaningful memories was created behind it. all of those memories and incidents just bringing myself down and make me fall all over again. and why suddenly i'm bringing up this topic? cause 250907, something happened. i'm not trying to boast around that i have a new guy with me but i just hate the date he chose to asked me to be his stead. its like 25th is an unlucky no., nothing great would happen on tat date, well not totally of that, 250506,something great happened, which of course i became his girl but not on 250307, that kills me. same goes for 250907, he wants me, but after all it was not great.
the no, 25th itself can bring me lots of memories,whats more the period of time between 250506-250307,which brings me so much pain. and on 250307 itself,i become worse than i ever be before this,i know most of my closes friends knew it cause i told them. it brings me down so much that it brought me to this state. it bothers me so much of every word that being spelled out, that sooner or later i'll be an insane person soon. i just hate everything that happened during that period of time, when others seems much appreciate the memories he create, and keep it to la on the memory lane,i hate it badly, an how i wish it didnt happened. i may not appreciate anything he had done or whatever,when only i hate him can make me forget him, than i just hate him include everything about him,no matter if he's the sweetest guy i ever met, but he's also the guy that i detest. i may hurt him in any way,but i know he's word had bring me down.
250907
we're together now but it is as if we're not. we don't seem to look like a couple but we look like enemies and friends. we're a bout to start a life that only consists of the both of us but you destroy it. say you love me and like me, but its like you're killing me right know. just over a small matter, you actually add more oil to it and make it into a big fire. i say what i should and i told you what you want to know,and you still don't believe me. i said sorry and i gave in to you and is this the kind of treatment i should receive from you? i was not only in the wrong, and i may did all those misunderstanding between the 3 of us (you,me & him), but i gave in to you. and why must you bring up the pasts which had got nothing to do with you,and all of that happened even before we're together, why must it bothers you so much? i may at fault for not text you or call when i actually skipped my geography class and mock exam,and i have a reason for doing so. you said it yourself if i don't agree on meeting you,we won't meet anymore, and i did exactly what i should,by not calling and text you. and i can never lie to you cause you saw with your own eyes that i sat with him,but we did nothing more,he wanted to meet me,so he came down,we have no plans of meeting up,all those was just coincidence. and why i should be the one getting into the first?,why you just have to look from afar while talking to him,and giving me that idiotic smile. and when you walked passed us again with the rest, you were the one acting as though i was not there and as th0ugh i don't exists in your life,and you were busy sniffing around with a small beg of glue. and now i'm not giving in anymore, fine if we don't text or call each other, cause i don't to be like a dog and you're the master, i have to listen and follow your instructions. why do i have to listen to you always while no one hears me talking. thanx for scolding me the sins that had done,thanks for your concerns i appreciate it but why must you take the matter so personal,it's a small matter and you make it big.
p.s.: if i were to hurt you while writing this post,i'm sorry,but this is just what i'm feeling right, fyi 250506 and 250907,is a two different people from two different world
