not everything goes the way you wanted.just like me. things didn't go the way i wanted yesterday and today. now i wish i could turn back time,cause i'm DOOMED! today is my doomed day. it may be his fault or should i say,ya duh! it is his fault. if he didn't do it i won't get into this big shit! but what happened,i can't turn back time,no one can turn back time. all i have to do is face the music. i'm sure i will not be sleeping tonight,and from today onwards i'm gonna isolate myself again in my room. actually that is what happened for the one whole month after 25th march. i isolate myself every single day. everytime i got home from school or where ever i was from, i would went straight to me room,i would only go out of my room to eat and go to the toilet,but of course when i need to get out from the house. many would ask,wouldn't it be boring just sitting in your room the whole day? cause that's was what my cousin asked me just now while window shopping at tampines mall. well,i guess i'm used to it already,if i have nothing to do i would just sit at a corner of my room and stare into space well some time ad things would happen lah,where some of you out there might know what would happen.
i'm just used to isolating myself in my room,do my homework in my room,most of the time eat in my room just about everything and i don't talk a lot at home. maybe if anyone that come in to my room would feel all the misery i went through just by coming into my room as it seems everything about me and my life are written everywhere around my room.
by the way,i left with few months down the road to prepare myself for N level,which i dun think i'm ready yet to sit for it. and i don't even think that i able to make it through the N level smoothly because of what i'm going through now. pray hard for me ya,hopefully i able to make it for O level next year.
lastly before i end,i would want to thank kak siti for being there when i need you,and my aunts and cousin especially my beloved grandma,love you all
