new skin up! at last i had changed my skin as i had not changed it for a long time since my computer was down,so since now i'm currently at my cousin's house for few hours,i took the chance to change the skin and update my blog. so for your info people,since my computer is yet to be fix, only seldom i will update my blog,so sorry.
busy lately with my studies,getting even busy since N level is coming soon. currently get to know to guys that both are equally weird, why?, the first guy asked me questions was as though i'm in some kind of job interview while the other one had already sound me stead after just knowing for only two days. well,of course i did not accept the second guy,gosh! you know why right? i just knew him for two days and he already sound stead,i guess he is damn desperate to get a girl by his side. by the way,i'm not the kind of girl who would accept any guy just by knowing him for few days. and now i'm stuck with 5s's guys,well all of their name start with letter 's''. i'm telling you people this not because i want to tell everyone out there that "hey look,5 guys are waiting for me",duh! of course that is not my intention, my intention is if that 5 guys is reading my blog,please do take note what i'm going to say after this....."i'm totally not interested to get into relationship for the time being,i wish to concentrate on more on my studies right now,well i do kinda have lost some interest in relationship,don't ask me why cause i'm myself don't have the answer for that. so that's all i have got to say,hope you understand, and don't ask me time and a again,how long we gonna be like this,cause again i have no answer for that,thank you for your understanding".
i need strength to go on with my life,i need confidence and faith in myself to go through every hurdle in my life. i'm not who i am anymore,i'm getting worse everyday. i'm lost in nowhere.
" ku sudah hilang penggangan hidup ku. semakin hari semakin menjadi-jadi kelakuan ku. maruah diri ku jua bagaikan kertas yang terbang entah ke mana di tiup angin. otak ku bagaikan sudah mati,tidak mampu lagi untuk berfikir,sudah tidak boleh berfungsi. ku biarkan diri ku di sentuh olehnya,tanpa ambil kisah,tanpa rasa segan silu. kadang-kala ku rasa bagaikan diri ini terlalu murah kerana ku melemparkan diri ku padanya. terasa jua diri ku ini telah kotor. Syukur pada Maha Esa,diri ini masih bersih lagi walaupun hampir-hampir terlangjur kadang-kala."
