today i didn't go to school cause i'm not feeling well today. all i do is just lay down on my bed all day along. the headache really killing me. i hope i did not miss any fun at school today,hehe.
oh ya,i missed the speech day event today,which i supposse to attend which mr ngoh force me to go. HAHAH! i actually missed it. but anyway congrats to zul,zaimah & hafiz for being the top of the various subjects that they are good at. i'm really proud of them.
yesterday zul was like trying to wake me up to reality maybe because i didn't realized what is really going on around me. she said that me & him used to be on good terms but now we are like total strangers and enemies. she even told me that any fights we had should be personal not openly. i wish it could be one personal thing again,but everyone around him is critizing me, putting me down or should i say all the critizing and stuffs are also from him too. say sorry it is easy for you since you seems to be cleaning away all your sins,and turning into someone who is more closer to God. that is the big change i seem to see,maybe he's like thata but i just didn't see it cause he had been sleeping for the past 9 months when we were together.
i just don't need him here now as a friend in need,and neither would i want him to be my frined in need,cause he took one big wrong step of throwing me away,so i just need him to be miles away from me,from my life. he's jsut driving me up the wall. everday of my life is always fill with guilty because he went to put all the faults on me...
thrown away doll on 25th...give me faith tog go through the evrday life. give me that pillar of strength...
