after 25th,i realized that my life is is really in a mess. everything is not in order. it fills more unhappiness and hatred than happiness and love. me? i'm just getting worse. i los my faith, my self-confidence i don't see the next day as a brand new day,but is the same old day,is the same routine i'm going through ever single day and minutes of my life. while some of them are more close to God,while i'm few miles away. what ever i do i can't concentrate,my mind,my soul and my body are not a part of each other anymore. prelims are getting nearer so is GCE 'N' Level. but i have no confidence, no faith. how am i suppose to go thorugh all that in few months down the road, when i'm not fully in my studies,my mind is not focusing on studies,when everyday there's something that stop me from doing things. at first i have move on with my life and everyday i told myself,mylife kinda complete with my friends around me but you put a fullstop there....till here for today i can't seems to continue anymore
p.s.: kau adalah hambatan dalam hidup ku;pade kau inilah masanya kau menolak ku ke tepi,
tapi kau salah,kau memusnah hidup dan diri ku...i don't need you to be my friend in need
because i can still you as someone who murdered me a week ago,you might be more closer
to God now after a long sleep while you were with me,but that does not me you can cristize
me badly,till i lost everything,i don't know who are you anymore. you mudered me,you
made lost everything,now i'm like an empty box...
