my heart had broken into pieces..you pull me apart,i'm a dead person now. i don't feel that my heart is pumping anymore. every single night my tears would sing me to sleep,every word you said is always ringing in my head and ear. in the room alone, crying helplessly thinking about what you said and done...to think i didn't realised how much you change. and i know you will say that you didn't change but just being more straightforward now and should i add,you telling yourself and me that being more straightforward and stuffs,you are matured now. it seems i'm the root of the problem and fights we have every single day. never ending fights. i never thought that you would say such things and do what you always hate me to do...from giving both of us some time to think and calm down to how immature my attitude is and how immature i do stuffs. i am immature as in ways that i don't know which is right and which is wrong. but i wonder...why you never think before you say..do you think all these while that you do or we do is right? where most of it is wrong...you aid slitting my wrist was a wishfull thinking of me and it shows immaturity of me...i wonder if you ever think that there might be one unlucky day that when i slit my wrist you might not see me in this world anymore...but i can't force to change the way you think but instead i'm shocked with your answer...
you broke my heart not into half but into pieces. you even kill me and i'm dead now. i lost all my emotions and feelings eventhough you might see me laugh, smile etc, that dosen't me i'm fine already but it is all fake. loving you is painful, leaving you or to be leave by you is painful too. it makes no different at all. i do love you but somehow you have been lock from outside of my heart...gosh! who the hell are you?...i just don't recognise you anymore, i don't seems to remember you at all...
the person i love is a caring guy,who always concern about me. he would be my listerning ear everytime i'm stress and have problems. then he would comfort me with he words that is meaningfull to me. he would say that he would stand by me no matter what happened and we go through it together,he don't care what others say bout us cause what he knows,he love me most, he don't care what others might say what he done for me as he could make me happy,
everytim i'm down he would make me happy,he was a person who accept me for who i am eventhough my life is so havoc.
but know i don't know where he had gone,instead the person who is by my side now do look the same as him,but i just don't know who he is,i don't recognise him at all. instead he putting me at a very low position of life. he keep lowering me down. i left with nothing to say. i just don't know who he is,he seems not the guy i love all these while,he seems to be someone i don't even recognise...
p.s.: i'm dead on 26 feb 07,ya dead,so dead...
