soon it will be mid february,and i left with fe months to go before 'N' level actually near/starts. everyone is stressing me about 'N' level,the teachers at school,my parents and my cousins. ahh! everytime i think about 'N' level is just getting near before you know it,i feel so scared about it. i'm really really afraid that i could not make it to sec 5. i don't want to continue studying at ite, that's not my wish at all. eventhough i know,if i were to ite,its not the end of the world but i just can't afford to waste anymore time to play and stuffs,or that time i waste can just bring me to ite. ok,i know at times i do waste time a lot with my friends from school and outside,and my sisters. gosh! seeing all those 'O' level students took thier results yesterday,really scare me out. i don't even know if i could see myself walking down the hall taking my 'O' level results next year. ok,instead i don't know if i could see myself ,taking my Os at the school hall,and receive my results with lots joyful. wait wait..i'm way to far for that,instead i want to see that i'll be walking down the hall to the teacher to take my 'N' level results,that bring joyful and happiness for myself and others.
p.s.: everytime i close my eyes,my past came haunting me over and over again..love you lost dear