These streets will make you feel brand new

a sudden thought of the pasts seriously brought me back all the sorrows and pain i went tru. the feeling of it is as though i'm bck in da pasts and da pain is still fresh. the sorrows,pain,probs i had in the pasts were never gone but it just keep coming every single day. i might became a stupid fool in the pasts but tat dose not mean i'm stupid in wats going ard me,it was just some stupid acting. as everything i did,i had my reasons for it. these reasons had be kept within me for a long time. no use asking me and telling u ppl the reasons,bcause is of no use now. it had became a phrase or a sentence tat had no more meaning to it. some ppl said and think i'm so desperatefor love,i'm nt matured, i do not noe the difference between love and sympthy,called me names lyke bitch , they thought i misused thier kindness,taking advantage of them and made them lyke an information centre for my own purpose,askin me to look in the mirror,sayin i dun have a mind of my own etc etc, i'm just a nobody...

den how about u ppl who actualli said that to me in the past,hav u eva ask urself where u stand in tis society,in ur lyfe,in ur skool,r u in da grp of those ppl from the bad company or those from the good company, or in between,or those in grp of ppl who r full of themselves and think tat wat they said r ryte and ask others to look in the mirrors which u shld b doin tat urself before u ask other to do it. so wat if u noe where ur path of lyfe i sleading to,but wats da use if u hav the looks tat every guy or gerl wanted if u just dun hav tat gd attitude in u instead u just hav tis attitude tat makes everyone left u wif a bad impression of u. of cuz ur close frens and those who know u won't say anything bad about u bcause they r just into ur looks that made them just wanna have u in thier life...

but how about others who just knew u,and tis how u end everything wif such phrases and attitude tat dun look good as ur looks. wat waste wif da good looks u have but u just lack of those good atttitude. dun tell me tat i no ntg between sympathy and love,bcause i noe. it was just stupid acting of me to make evryone believe actualli i'm realli into it. if i'm nt matured yet den i would hold onto da pasts,a ONE BIG STUPID USELESS FAT PASTS.

bcause of the pasts i learnt a lot about different ppl with different attitude which most of it were just lack of gd attitude. and for me they still do not know where they stand in tis society,in thier life and skool. i noe where i stand,i might yet able to find out where my life leading bcause i went tru a lot of changes,but i noe where i stand,i noe most ppl would say they r much more better than me,which i agree n nvr denied that. but u ppl woul denied everything tat is actualli da truth about u,just tryin to cover up everything hope tat others won't see it.

pls stop sayin others names,tell them to look in da mirror blah blah blah,do wat u wan others to do first before u ask them to do,wats da use asking others to apply everything tat u said which can help them improve thier life when u didn't apply it to urself. dun be a proud person to say tat everything u did and say r ryte bcause u r not perfect to tell others that,and they r not perfect too tats include me. eventhough most of the pasts memories hurts me a lot,but never did i eva think i wanna go bck to them now,bcause they r just useless past, too much burns from the pain and sorrows. yes,i did eva said tat if i cld turn bck tyme i wanna go bck to da past but not those that filled wif hatred,sorrows and pain but from the start where i noe tat in my lyfe something is waiting and there r a lot of tests i hav to go tru in order to achive my goal in life. i maybe feel lyke giving up and say to myself i'm just useless person,but tat did not stop me from looking forward in lyfe. when i learnt to give up,i learnt not to give up in life,which i'm tryin to do now.

i dunno y am i saying alls tis suddenly,but if i just keep everything to myself,it just keeps hurting me and making my lyfe worse. to those ppl who reading tis and noe tat i'm talking bout them,i just wanna say wake up,u just hav to wake up,from those long sleep,and wake up from ur own world. everything tat i said from da start is only for those who know me of cuz not those from my skool but from other skool who knew. and before i end,again if u ppl r reading tis n suddenly remember wat u did to me,just wake up from ur own world,do some thinking, and while u reading tis suddenly u feel as though u gonna burst lyke a ballon or volcano,or mayb fire started to burn in u,sori,but i just can't help it,wat i said from da start is a fact and da truth. i'm nt lyke someone who loves to twist story....(tis is just for those who know me especially those who r not from my skool)

signin off,
missy irah....