as per normal everyone hav mondae blues especially for da sec 3 students lyke me,as we kinda just get bck from camp n 2 days rest is totally nt enough. me worse 2 days i was sick at camp but when afternoon comes i was ok oreadi but when i came bck home on fridae from camp my fever came bck,i gt cough almost lost my voice n headache. i felt s terribble,seriously tis was da 1st tyme i came bck from camp straight a way sick,nvr before tis had happened before. wateva it is i seriously can't concentrate todae at skool.
i just hate mondae,hateful dae...U WANNA Y???, let me tell u,it is all bcause of my STUPID F&N TEACHER,HATE HER TO DA CORE SINCE SEC 1, she always make my dae so hateful,n in bloddy i n no mood...same goes on thrusdae,just see her face make me wanna puke...gt seriously scolded by her todae as i nvr pass up my coursewrk,n i had a short detention wi her just now wif my other 2 frens who r in da same boat as me,n at da end of da detention she even told us tat if tis kind og things happen again she will just send us to detention outside da teacher stuf room as tat is more serious,OR SHOULD I SAID TAT PHRASE WAS TOTALLY FOR ME,hate her siar. she keep sayin other ppls english is so bad but she didn't notice tat her english is worse den a pri student...talk also cannt talk properl n her dress up her clothes,she thinks she still young,WAT DA FUCK!!!!! blm sedar lagi dah tue,ingat mude pe pakai mcm gitu BODOH!!!!
LOVE? does it exist in my lyfe? i dun think so,no one noes wat i'm goin tru. it is ez to be talk den done. lyfe were nvr ez for me since da start of da year. me myself dunno wat was happeneing to me,i became from very gd to gd to bad to worse, i thought da wrd worse was nt in my dictionary of lyfe but it does exist no matter how i try to run away from it. i change a lot, ye si do realize it, i do notice it, bu i became worse can't control it, n i noe it is a drastic change,n da nxt day u noe it tat i'm nt da person i used to be,i'm a new person now,tat i stotally nt me,just someone new,a new soul which is now livin in my body.
i guess da real me,my soul isnow wonderin around somewhere,stuck somewhere n dun even noe da way bck to where it suppose to be....
RELATIONSHIP? LONLy? GUYZ? sumtymes i rather be lonely n be alone wif no one by my side,i feel happy tat way. most of da tymes i do lock my heart up,i lock my ownself up,bcause i dun wan to get hurt anymore,sumtymes i lock both so tat i would nt fell in luv wif anyone or love anybody. dosen't mean i dun accept someone new in my lyfe is bcause i'm waitin for someone who used to exist in my lyfe,used to make me happy n used to make me cry n hurt. is nt tat,i just wanna stop somehow n let tis pain in me heal first before it gets hurts again....
most of da tyme wrds r ntg to me,as i noe u say it bcause u were force or say it bcause it means ntg to u,it is just a wrd or phrase tat u say to any gerl u noe or meet,wif no deep/special meanin to it....
wrds r ntg as it is ez to say it out but i guess it is nt ez to show it, if u say it den show it dun just say n it mean ntg to u...
dun let me drown further into ur love fantasy just bcause u say u love me, as u would just drownin me further into a pool tat is full of pain,blood,miserable n sorrows...